Fin's arrival three years ago was... unexpected. Of course, we knew we were having a baby, we just thought we had about six more weeks before he showed up.
The experience of his arrival was terrifying, traumatic and scary - but the reality of his arrival, of his being with us, was and is just amazing. His first few months were really, really hard and even the distance of three years' time doesn't make me remember those sleepless, exhausting, uncertain moments any more fondly. But every time he smiles or gives me a hug or kiss or even just breathes softly in his sleep, I know I wouldn't change a thing because that experience gave us the sweet little guy we have right now.
So, here is the letter I wrote to Fin a few days after his birth. We'd been home from the hospital (out of the NICU) for a few days and I had been having some pretty traumatic flashbacks to his brith experience. I knew writing it down would help me have some distance from it as I tried to heal physically and mentally, and I wanted him to know how incredible I already knew he was.
If you haven't already read this letter, I should warn that it might be a good idea to have a tissue handy. I know I can't read it without crying, but then I'm his mom and I lived this. Things have calmed down since we first met, but every single day with my sweet little Fin has been incredible.
Enjoy.
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December 24, 2005
A Letter to my Sweet Baby Finian, about your birth –
I am entering my 35th week of pregnancy when the cramps start. They are low across my back and remind me of menstrual cramps, but not too intense or severe. Backrubs from your dad and a heating pad help some. They do not worry me because I know my body is just getting ready to push you out in about 5 weeks.
A few times before bed, I notice I have started to have actual contractions – the cramp spreads from my lower back around to my abdomen and everything is tight and painful for about 45 seconds. I concentrate on relaxing and breathing through the contraction, getting ready for the non-medicated childbirth your dad and I have planned. The contractions are not regular and I know false labor is common. I am not worried. These continue on and off for about 4 days.
On Thursday I feel a lot of these “practice” contractions and am very uncomfortable. I call our midwife Donna to let her know that the contractions are getting more painful. We have an appointment scheduled to see her for the next day, and I know she’ll tell me to just rest and relax, but I think she should know that I am getting a little concerned. After all, as much as I am eager and anxious to meet you, we aren’t expecting you for another 5 weeks and 4 days.
Donna says that if I had reached 35 weeks she would tell me everything I was feeling was normal. But, since I am still a few days away from that mark, I am supposed to keep a very close eye on what I am feeling and let her know if things change. If I feel the contractions more than once every ten minutes for a full hour, or have more than 6 in an hour, or if they do not go away when I use the bathroom or elevate my feet or lie down or relax in the tub, then I am supposed to call. Otherwise, she will see me at my appointment the next afternoon.
I keep track of what is happening. I take a nap and they stop. They come back when I wake up, but stop when I walk around a bit. Finally, that night, when nothing else will make them go away, I take a bath. For the first time in the whole pregnancy, they do not stop when I am in the tub. But they also do not become more regular or more intense. I can talk through most of them and even though they last anywhere from 30 seconds to over a minute, they come at 6 minutes, then 20 minutes, then 12 minutes, then 4 minutes and so on. They never become “real labor”.
On the morning of Friday, December 16th, I get up and am visiting with your Grandpa Terry, who is in town visiting us. I am telling him how excited we are to meet you, but how there is so much stuff we still need to get done before you show up. Your furniture hasn’t been delivered, we don’t have diapers for you, but most importantly, I do not feel I am ready to push you out yet. I don’t feel like I know what I am going to do when I really start to hurt and I tell him that with all the pains and contractions I have been feeling all week, I am worried that I won’t be able to manage the pain when the time comes.
I go to the bathroom that morning and discover that I have lost my mucus plug. Your dad and I look through all the baby books we have around to see if that means something is about to happen. One book says I will probably start real labor in 24-48 hours, but another book says it could be anywhere from one to three weeks. Our appointment with Donna is in about 6 hours, so I figure we will just let her know then.
We decide to go out for breakfast, so I go to take a shower. Once in the shower, I start having some contractions in my lower back and they hurt more and more, but again, they are not coming at regular intervals. The shower feels really good on my back and my big pregnant tummy, so I just stay in there for a while. Your dad comes to check on me and I figure it is time to get out and go to breakfast. However, just as I am about to turn off the water, I feel a big gush. My water has broken!
Your dad quickly calls Donna’s office to let them know that my water has broken – a sign that labor is usually pretty close behind. I am in the shower thinking that my body will know what to do, but it is too early for you to come out yet. I am getting scared, but I just kept telling myself that God knows what He is doing and will help me figure it all out. She asks if I am having contractions and at this point they have slowed down, so she says to just come in to my appointment in a few hours, but call if anything changes.
Your dad hangs up the phone and when he walks back into the bathroom, he finds me on my hands and knees in the shower having a very big, very painful contraction. We wait to see if they are going to come every 5 or 10 minutes, but within a minute or two, I have another. He calls Donna right back and she says we have to get to the hospital immediately. They need to monitor us to make sure you are okay.
Your grandpa had been a paramedic for a few years and had delivered a few babies, so it is very nice for me to have him nearby. He’s always very calm and I know he at least is familiar with women in labor – at least he has more experience with what is happening to us than either your dad or I have. I come out of the bathroom and find him telling me that everything is going to be okay, the contractions will slow down, we’ll have plenty of time to get where we need to be and we’ll all be fine. In fact, at this point, I am still thinking we are going to go to the hospital and be told that you are still weeks away from showing up. When I walk out of the bathroom and put on my watch to start keeping track of the contractions, it is 10:40am on December 16, 2005.
Your dad is going all over the house collecting the things we might need if I really am in labor. I get down the hallway from our bedroom and am already having another contraction. Your grandpa sits next to me, rubs my lower back, and tells me everything is going to be okay – the contractions will slow down any minute now. I try to concentrate on just pushing the button on my stopwatch every time the contractions start or stop, but I notice that I am only having about a minute or so to rest in between them.
After a few minutes, your grandpa decides that things are not slowing down after all and tells your dad it is time to get me in the car and get to the hospital. Unfortunately, the hospital is 25 miles away – something everyone told us was not going to be an issue because real labor always takes a really long time. They both help me up after a contraction and before I have taken three steps, I am back on the floor having another contraction. By this time, we are all starting to get scared. I realize that I just have to make it across the living room and into the garage so we can get going. After the next contraction, I just make myself go. They have pillows in the back of the car and I lie down just as another contraction hits me.
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The car ride to the hospital is very scary. I keep concentrating on hitting the button on my stopwatch, but at this point, I know that something is not right. I was not in labor at all, and then I was suddenly having contractions that lasted a minute each with only a minute or less in between to catch my breath. Your dad is driving us to the hospital and both of them are telling me that everything is fine.
At first, I am trying to just take lots of deep breaths when the contractions hit. Before I know it, I am saying “okay okay okay okay okay.” I am telling myself that I am going to be okay, that you are fine, that everything is going to work out. I am scared, but I can handle this. The contractions keep coming.
In a few minutes, I hear myself saying “ow ow ow ow ow.” I cannot believe how much it hurts, but I know that if I just try to stay calm everything will be fine. You will be fine, I will be fine and it will all just be a great story to tell. I am kicking the car door with my feet to try to get the pain away from me. The contractions keep coming.
I am suddenly yelling “no no no no no.” The contractions are too close. They hurt too much. Something is not right. I am scared. I am hitting the back of your dad’s seat in front of me. Your grandpa is holding my hand. I notice that he has put his seat down in front and is facing backwards to try to help me. He tells me he does not want to have to deliver you in the car.
Then I am just screaming. I try to hold a pillow to my mouth so I don’t scare your dad too much. I think that I have never heard my voice make that sound before, but that sound is all that I can feel. I can see only bright red. I can only scream.
The contractions keep coming.
Between the contractions, I try to tell your dad that I am okay. I have to scream because it hurts, but he should not be scared. I touch his neck and tell him we are fine. I hope I am right. I am still hitting the button on the stopwatch.
As the hospital comes into view, I feel you start to come out of my body. I know it is too soon and just keep telling myself not to push. I cannot push.
Your dad pulls up to the ER and your grandpa jumps out of the car to get someone to help. In between contractions I tell your dad I can feel you. I can feel that you are ready to come out. You are already in the birth canal. A contraction hits and I tell myself not to push.
A nurse runs to the car with a wheelchair and tells your dad and grandpa to run to the lobby and get the elevator. She is running with me and through the contraction I can see the back of your dad running away from me. We get into the lobby and the elevator is waiting. Your grandpa is holding my hand and I look around. Where is your dad? He had to move the car. He is not with me. I will not see him again for hours.
We get to the maternity floor and someone tells me to hop up on the bed. Between contractions, I ask “HOP???” They remind me that another contraction is coming so I move fast, get on the bed and take off my underwear so they can examine me. I see blood.
A nurse named DeeDee takes one look and says, “We have a prolapsed cord.” I know this is not good. I know this is what I felt when I said you were trying to leave my body. It is not you; it is your life support system. If this cord gets outside before you, you cannot breathe and your brain and organs can get hurt or stop working. DeeDee immediately puts her hand inside me to keep you off your own cord.
They tell me they will have to perform surgery on me to get you out. I do not care; I just want you to be safe. I hear someone say you might be breech. I tell them that you were at the last midwife visit two weeks ago. They are rubbing something cold on my stomach so they can do the surgery. It hurts. They stick my hand to give me drugs and apologize. I tell them I don’t care; I just need you to be okay. I am praying and praying, “please be okay, please be okay”. It’s all I can say or think. I am having contractions and they are telling me not to push. I say, “I am not pushing. I am not pushing. Please be okay, baby, please be okay.”
The doctor is on his way. They tell me they are giving me something so I don’t feel the contractions. I hear someone say they see poop – this is meconium. It means you are not doing well. Someone else says your heartrate is in the 90s. This also means you are not well. I am so scared. The doctor is still four minutes away. They put a mask on me and tell me to take long slow breaths. I still feel the contractions and there is nothing coming from the mask. I do not care if I have to be awake when they cut you out of me; I just need you to be okay. They are pushing on my throat so they can give me a breathing tube when the surgery starts. They are giving me a catheter and apologizing for hurting me. The only thing that can hurt me now is if you are not okay. Someone tries to tell DeeDee to move so they can examine me. I hear her say she is keeping this baby off this cord and alive. She will not move. I thank God for DeeDee.
They are arguing over whether they can start without the surgeon. They say they need to cut now to get you out. Someone says it’s time to knock me out and cut. The anesthesiologist says he will not drug me until it’s time to cut. They cannot cut until the doctor is there. I do not care if I am awake when they cut me, but I selfishly hope for drugs because I am so scared. Someone whispers to me that you are doing okay, your heartrate is back up. I do not know if I should believe him, but I pray that he’s telling the truth. Someone says the doctor is in the building, the mask is back on me and I feel them grab my skin and start to cut me open to get you out. Please be okay, my baby. The drugs kick in and I am blissfully unaware of what happens next.
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Later, your dad and grandpa fill me in on the next twenty minutes. They are in the waiting room and nobody is telling them anything. People are running in and out of the operating room. Codes are being called. Resuscitation teams are being called. A nurse leaves the room and will not make eye contact with them. They are preparing for the worst.
Finally, the doctor comes out to talk to them. You are okay. I am okay. They still do not exhale. The doctor asks your dad if he wants to see you. He gets to meet you within minutes of your birth.
When you were born, they doctors said you were “severely depressed and completely unresponsive”. At one minute of life, you stopped breathing and they had to do a complete resuscitation. They gave you a breathing tube just like I had. Your first Apgar score was a 2.
When your dad gets to meet you for the first time, you have a tube in your throat and someone is breathing for you. With your dad watching, they remove your breathing tube and stand ready to resuscitate you again. To everyone’s amazement you are breathing on your own. Your lungs are good and strong. At ten minutes of life, you are breathing room air on your own. Your dad got to see your first real breaths of air. When they redo your Apgar test at ten minutes, you score an 8. (Your five minute Apgar score is a 5.)
They are able to determine that your brain, lungs and most organs are okay, but they are worried that your stomach and digestive system suffered the most distress from the umbilical cord being squashed. They keep you in the NICU on monitors, antibiotics and IVs until they can find out how okay you are.
The surgeon tells your dad it is the fastest surgery he has ever performed. He never even changed into scrubs before they cut me; they just threw a gown over his clothes and gave him two sets of gloves because he did not have time to scrub in.
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When I wake from my drug haze, someone tells me you are okay. You were born at 11:51am. I remember that it was 10:40am when I got out of the shower that morning. I am amazed that you are here so quickly. Your grandpa is sitting at the foot of my bed just waiting for me to wake up. He tells me you have curly red hair like I did when I was born. I have never seen him look so relieved.
They tell me I was fully dilated when we arrived at the hospital. I went from false labor to fully ready to deliver in just over an hour. That explains the pain.
The nurse tells me in twelve years of being a maternity nurse she has seen only two prolapsed cords. It was a very scary day for all of them. They are all calling you the “Christmas miracle baby of 2005.” I still cannot believe you are here. You are 34 weeks and 4 days gestational age. The earliest they like to let babies come out is 37 weeks. You are a preemie.
It is good that I gained too much weight during the pregnancy. You are 5 lbs 13.8 oz at birth. This is small, but a very good size for a preemie. You are 18.5 inches long at birth. You are tall and skinny just like your dad.
Your dad comes into the room and I tell him we have a baby. He knows – he’s been with you in the NICU the whole time. He took pictures of you on his cell phone to show to me. They will not let you come to me because you are on monitors and they will not let me go to you because I am also hooked up to machines and heavily drugged.
They tell me I cannot see you until I can walk to the NICU on my own and I cannot walk until I’m off the drugs. I tell them to stop giving me drugs. They insist that I am in pain and keep giving me shots that knock me out. I am angry and say I just want to see my baby. They tell me that because I had a general anesthetic instead of a spinal, my recovery will be much harder and more painful. I tell them I don’t care – I can handle pain, I just need to see you. They finally quit giving me Demerol.
Finally, after twelve hours, my head is clear enough that I can walk. At midnight, I finally get to see you and touch you. They will not let me hold you yet. You are so small and have so many wires and tubes attached to you. But you are here, you are alive and you are more amazing and beautiful than I ever could have hoped.
The next day they let me hold you to give you your first bottle. We wanted to give you only breast milk, but they tell me that you are too small to nurse right now. The lactation consultant warns us that because you are a preemie, it might be a month or more before you are strong enough to get a good latch and really eat from the breast. They also tell us you are tongue tied, which means your tongue does not stick out over your bottom gums like it should. This will also make breastfeeding harder. Again, I tell them I do not care. I know that breast milk is the best thing for you, especially as a preemie, so I insist on learning how to pump right away. After that first bottle, every time you eat you have a few drops of colostrum from me, whatever I can get out.
Within two days, my milk has come in and you are eating breast milk exclusively from a bottle. We are practicing putting you to the breast a few minutes at a time. They are amazed at how strong you are and how you are not acting sick and weak like a preemie should. On the third morning, they tell us they are going to start treating you like a healthy baby instead of a sick baby. You finally get to stay in our room a few hours at a time, though they keep a scary looking IV in your head (you were strong enough to pull the one out of your hand twice) just in case you get weaker. You never do.
They insist on examining you and weighing you before every feeding. I tell them you are actually latching on and breast feeding on your own, though not for very long. They do not believe me and send someone to watch what we are doing. You have amazed them again. You get tired quickly, but your instincts are strong and true. You are breastfeeding on your own by your fourth day of life – something they said you couldn’t do for several weeks, if ever.
Finally, when you are five days old, they tell us we all get to go home together. Your dad and I have not been able to stop staring at you since we first met you and we are amazed every day that you really are here. We have decided that you have your dad’s lips and chin (with his cute little chin dimple) and my nose. I do not know where these beautiful eyes came from, but I swear I can fall into them forever.
You really are healthy and strong and beautiful. And we love you so much more than we ever thought it would be possible to love another human being. I hope you always, always know how very much we love you. I have a feeling words will never be enough to convey how much this is true.
Merry Christmas, my sweet angel baby. With every breath, I thank God for letting you be here and I know I must have done something very good in my life to deserve to have you in it.
Love,
-Mom-
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
And Now He's Three
My sweet little Fin is THREE!
I don't quite know where the time has gone, but the last three years just flew by so quickly. What have I been doing with my time?
We've been telling stories and reading books, pretending to be various characters and tickle monsters, building forts and "hospitals" out of couch cushions just to knock them down and giggle, having messy days and writing letters to penpals and ourselves, making wonderful creations out of playdoh and trying to keep Greta from eating it all, snuggling and cuddling and giving lots of kisses, "blowing" hugs and asking so many questions and learning and laughing all day long.
And he's just growing up to be the most amazing little boy. He's smart, he's sweet, he's inquisitive, he's impatient, he's silly, he's beautiful - and he's mine. And he's heard me say it, too. Every once in a while, he'll give me a great big hug and say, "You're MINE!".
This morning, he woke up, gave me a hug and announced, "I'm going to keep you for best forever!" The grammar is not quite there, but I definitely understand his sentiment.
And before I left for work this morning, he and Dave were drawing at the dining table. GaGa showed up and when she asked what he was drawing, he said as clear as day, "I'm drawing Mrs. Potato Head and Mr. Potato Head from Woody!" (Toy Story = Woody).
I got a little choked up and pointed out the Dave that he said PO-TA-TO instead of his usual "Ta-AY-To". Fin just laughed as said, "'Ta-ato?" That's silly! That doesn't sound like 'potato!'"
Yep, he's growing up so very quickly. I'm so blessed.
I don't quite know where the time has gone, but the last three years just flew by so quickly. What have I been doing with my time?
We've been telling stories and reading books, pretending to be various characters and tickle monsters, building forts and "hospitals" out of couch cushions just to knock them down and giggle, having messy days and writing letters to penpals and ourselves, making wonderful creations out of playdoh and trying to keep Greta from eating it all, snuggling and cuddling and giving lots of kisses, "blowing" hugs and asking so many questions and learning and laughing all day long.
And he's just growing up to be the most amazing little boy. He's smart, he's sweet, he's inquisitive, he's impatient, he's silly, he's beautiful - and he's mine. And he's heard me say it, too. Every once in a while, he'll give me a great big hug and say, "You're MINE!".
This morning, he woke up, gave me a hug and announced, "I'm going to keep you for best forever!" The grammar is not quite there, but I definitely understand his sentiment.
And before I left for work this morning, he and Dave were drawing at the dining table. GaGa showed up and when she asked what he was drawing, he said as clear as day, "I'm drawing Mrs. Potato Head and Mr. Potato Head from Woody!" (Toy Story = Woody).
I got a little choked up and pointed out the Dave that he said PO-TA-TO instead of his usual "Ta-AY-To". Fin just laughed as said, "'Ta-ato?" That's silly! That doesn't sound like 'potato!'"
Yep, he's growing up so very quickly. I'm so blessed.
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Finny and the Freckle
Last night as we were driving home from Gaga's house, I started asking Fin about the holidays coming up. I asked about his favorite things about Thanksgiving, Christmas, his upcoming birthday, etc.
Me: "What's your favorite thing about birthdays?"
Fin: "The cake!"
Me: "What's your favorite thing about Greta?"
Fin: "The... sister part!"
Me: "What's your favorite thing about Daddy?"
Fin: "The Daddy part!"
Me: "What's your favorite thing about Mommy?"
Fin: (silence) "Hmmm.... the freckle!"
Yes, this kid is still obsessed with two freckles I have on my chest. He discovered them while he was still nursing, but they became true comfort when he weaned. Now, whenever he is tired, sad, scared, hurt, whatever, he will ask, "Can I have the freckle?" Sometimes he'll just slide his hand right down my shirt without asking. This is how he falls asleep most nights.
I think it's awfully sweet, though I know it looks weird to anyone who doesn't know about the freckles and their exact locations. (I swear, they're not near the boobs.) But I was still surprised when they were his favorite thing about mommy. LOL Guess all those kisses and hugs don't add up to much without the freckle, huh?
Me: "What's your favorite thing about birthdays?"
Fin: "The cake!"
Me: "What's your favorite thing about Greta?"
Fin: "The... sister part!"
Me: "What's your favorite thing about Daddy?"
Fin: "The Daddy part!"
Me: "What's your favorite thing about Mommy?"
Fin: (silence) "Hmmm.... the freckle!"
Yes, this kid is still obsessed with two freckles I have on my chest. He discovered them while he was still nursing, but they became true comfort when he weaned. Now, whenever he is tired, sad, scared, hurt, whatever, he will ask, "Can I have the freckle?" Sometimes he'll just slide his hand right down my shirt without asking. This is how he falls asleep most nights.
I think it's awfully sweet, though I know it looks weird to anyone who doesn't know about the freckles and their exact locations. (I swear, they're not near the boobs.) But I was still surprised when they were his favorite thing about mommy. LOL Guess all those kisses and hugs don't add up to much without the freckle, huh?
Greta's 12 Month Doctor Visit
This little girl is definitely following in her brother's footsteps. She's 30.25 inches tall (90%) and weighs 18lbs 12oz (25%). They're both taaaaalll and thin, like their dad.
She also cut her 8th tooth this weekend and is adding new signs just about every day. She had at least 6 when we met with her pediatrician (nurse, eat, more, all done, hat, cat, and one that can mean bird/plane/fan/light, depending on when and where she signs it) and then last night she signed "moon" on the way to the car, too. Still only two real words - Mama and Dada, but she loves to say them over and over and over and over.
It's so fun to walk into the house after work and hear her yelling, "Mama! Mama! Mama!" while she jumps up and down and tries to get to me as quickly as she can.
Sweet little boo.
She also cut her 8th tooth this weekend and is adding new signs just about every day. She had at least 6 when we met with her pediatrician (nurse, eat, more, all done, hat, cat, and one that can mean bird/plane/fan/light, depending on when and where she signs it) and then last night she signed "moon" on the way to the car, too. Still only two real words - Mama and Dada, but she loves to say them over and over and over and over.
It's so fun to walk into the house after work and hear her yelling, "Mama! Mama! Mama!" while she jumps up and down and tries to get to me as quickly as she can.
Sweet little boo.
Friday, November 28, 2008
Happy First Birthday Sweet Greta Boo!
I have so much I want to tell you about your first year and how wonderful and amazing and sweet and cute and funny you are. I'm working on a letter to capture some of those moments, but you hit a fun new milestone today that I thought was worth mentioning even before the letter is done.
You took your first steps today!
You've been doing tons and tons of finger walking for a few weeks now, and in the past few days or so, you've been trying to stand on your own, but you still would sit down a few seconds after realizing you weren't holding on to anything.
But today you took a few steps here and there during your birthday party! I don't think you ever went more than 3 or 4 steps, but you were so proud of yourself. We're all so proud of you, too!
By the end of the evening, you were pulling up using only one finger and then standing on your own for 15-20 seconds at a time. I have a feeling you'll be running before we know it.
Happy Birthday, my sweet baby girl. Mommy and Daddy (and Finny) love you soooo much!
You took your first steps today!
You've been doing tons and tons of finger walking for a few weeks now, and in the past few days or so, you've been trying to stand on your own, but you still would sit down a few seconds after realizing you weren't holding on to anything.
But today you took a few steps here and there during your birthday party! I don't think you ever went more than 3 or 4 steps, but you were so proud of yourself. We're all so proud of you, too!
By the end of the evening, you were pulling up using only one finger and then standing on your own for 15-20 seconds at a time. I have a feeling you'll be running before we know it.
Happy Birthday, my sweet baby girl. Mommy and Daddy (and Finny) love you soooo much!
Greta's Birth Letter
She's one. It's amazing. She's amazing. I thought this would be an appropriate day to recount the experience of her birth.
The letter I wrote her about it last year is long, but, well... it was a big day for both of us. I figured she'd like the details some day.
Enjoy.
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13 December 2007
A Letter to My Sweet Baby Greta About Your Birth –
When I first found out I was pregnant, I instantly knew we’d be having a daughter and I was so excited but also a little scared. Your brother’s arrival had been terrifying and I didn’t quite know what to expect this time around.
The first half of our pregnancy was pretty uneventful – I was tired and queasy, but that was not at all uncommon. By the middle of the pregnancy, however, you were starting to show signs of being up to your big brother’s antics in the womb. Just like Fin, you and my body had teamed up to start causing a lot of contractions very early on. Luckily, this time we knew to take the contractions seriously and take precautions to make sure you didn’t arrive too early like Fin did.
We had shopped around for a doctor who would let us have a natural, drug-free birth this time after having had Fin by Caesarian section and found a doctor your dad and I both really liked and trusted. As much as we all wanted to go the non-medical route for your delivery, we knew we’d have to take some medical precautions and interventions to make sure you stayed in full-term and were healthy.
At 24 weeks, I was having so many contractions that the doctor wanted me to go to the hospital to be monitored. We ended up having to have two doses of drugs to get things to calm down and were eventually sent home. Two weeks later, at my monthly doctor’s appointment, we decided it was time to start the active process of keeping you inside. I was given a prescription for drugs to take at home when the contractions started up again and I was started on weekly hormone shots as well. We also got sent a machine to monitor my contractions every day, so for an hour every morning and every evening, I had to lie very still while attached to a machine so we could keep tabs on what you were doing in there. If things were too active, I had to take more drugs and do a bunch of things to try to get the contractions to stop – and then spend at least another hour on the machine. From 27 weeks on, I was talking to the nurses at least twice a day, and taking drugs to stop the contractions several times a week. At 28 weeks, despite our efforts to keep the contractions calm, my cervix was starting to dilate, which was not the news we wanted to hear. I was officially put on bedrest until at least 36 weeks.
After two weeks of bedrest, my cervix was even more dilated so I started having to take the drugs every 4 hours all day long to keep the contractions under control. I even had to wake up during the night to take them. And with the additional dilation, our doctor decided we needed to have a steroid shot to mature your lungs just in case you decided to show up early. The combination of the drugs to stop the contractions, the weekly hormone shots and the steroid shot for your lungs caused a terrible migraine headache that lasted six days. That was the least fun part of the entire pregnancy, but I knew it would all be worth it when you came out healthy and full-term. We managed the rest of the pregnancy with the drugs, but also with weekly acupuncture visits, chiropractic adjustments and pregnancy massage.
For the next several weeks, we seemed to have things under control. I was still having contractions every day and occasionally having to do extra monitoring sessions to get them under control, but I was not getting more dilated and you seemed happy to stay inside me for a while longer.
Finally, after 9 weeks of hormone shots, 8 weeks of daily contraction monitoring and 7 weeks of bedrest, I was allowed to be a “normal” pregnant woman again. We were officially 36 weeks along and while we still wanted you to stay in a few more weeks, we knew you’d be healthy and okay if you decided to show up. I had been telling you all along that you just had to stay in until Thanksgiving and then you were welcome to come out.
The day before Thanksgiving and Thanksgiving Day itself, I was having a lot of contractions and we all thought you’d be making an appearance very soon. However, things never really picked up, the contractions didn’t become regular enough to time and you decided to stay put. The Tuesday after Thanksgiving, we had another doctor’s appointment and learned that I was indeed dilating more (3cm, 80% effaced) and that you could come any day or still decide to stay put for a few more weeks. At this point, your dad and I were both very eager and excited to meet you, but also knew that every day you stayed inside was a day you could grow bigger and stronger before meeting the world.
The morning of that doctor’s visit, I was having more contractions but still not enough to time or to call true labor, but I knew things were starting to pick up. I decided to have lunch with a friend at the mall and walk around a bit to see if labor would start on its own. I didn’t start having more regular contractions, but I did have a bit of bloody show and I knew that losing my mucus plug was an early sign of labor. I was very excited to think I’d be meeting you in just a few days!
That night, things went pretty much as usual. I had some stronger contractions, but just like they had been for the last few days. We went to bed knowing you may be here in a few days or another week.
At about 2:30am your big brother Fin woke up and decided he needed some Mommy time. He wasn’t fussy or crying, he was just awake and wanting to cuddle with Mommy. We snuggled and talked and giggled in bed for a couple of hours and he finally fell asleep again at about 4:45am. Once he was asleep, I got up to use the bathroom and tried to go back to sleep myself.
I was lying in bed just dozing off when I suddenly felt a sharp pinch. I thought “Ow – that’s weird” and then felt a POP! I got up and hurried back to the bathroom and sure enough – GUSH – my water had broken! It was 4:55am on Tuesday, November 28, 2007 and I knew we’d be meeting our little girl in a few hours!
I woke up your dad and whispered to him that my water had broken. I wasn’t feeling contractions yet and knew they could take a while to start, but with your brother they had started right away and been very close together. I thought you’d give us a little more time, so I told your dad to go back to sleep and tried to lay back down myself to get some rest since I’d already been awake for a few hours with Fin. Of course, by this time I was too excited to sleep so I just tried to rest. Within a few minutes the contractions started and I began timing them. They were 5 minutes apart, but not too painful so I just waited and talked to you and to my body about how we were going to do this together and how excited I was to finally meet you.
I sent an email to work to let them know I would not be on that morning’s conference call and called our doula Kimberly about an hour after my water broke. She suggested going back to sleep also, but I knew that was going to be impossible. I called your grandpa Terry and aunt Kiza in Texas to let them know you were on your way and called both of your grandmothers who live here in town to let them know it was time. Your HaHa was going to be with Finny while we went to the hospital and your GaGa was going to come with us to help welcome you to the world. After all these phone calls, I finally called Kimberly back to let her know that the contractions were getting more intense and it was time for her to come over. I decided to take a shower to help deal with the contractions while we waited for Kimberly, HaHa and GaGa to get to our house.
By about 7am everyone had arrived. Fin was still asleep, your dad and Kimberly were helping me through the contractions using the hypnobirth relaxation techniques we’d been practicing, and GaGa and HaHa were bustling about to make sure everything was ready to go when we needed to get to the hospital. Fin suddenly woke up in the other room and was not happy to find himself alone, so your dad and I crawled back into bed with Fin to let him know that his little sister Baby Greta was finally on her way. He’d been talking to you and giving you kisses in my belly for months. He kept asking you to come out and play with him and he was very excited to learn that he was finally going to get to meet you.
We ended up sitting in the bed relaxing through the contractions for a while. Your dad brought me snacks and Kimberly massaged my feet while GaGa sat and worried about us (it’s what she does…). Finally, I told your dad I needed him to come sit behind me, and he propped himself up on pillows so I could lean against him as we breathed and relaxed through the contractions that were bringing you closer and closer to us. Fin eventually crawled back in bed with us and we spent a few last minutes as our family of just three celebrating that were about to grow to a loving family of four.
After a while, the contractions were getting harder to just relax and breathe through, so I thought walking around would help. As I moved off the bed I suddenly felt the need to use the bathroom again. Kimberly asked if I had already gone a few times that morning and I had, so we both knew this was a clear sign that you were moving lower. Our time at home was almost done.
I went into the bathroom and had a contraction so strong that I was on my knees holding on to the towel rod to get through it. As I walked out of the bathroom, both your dad and Kimberly were standing and saying it was time to go to the hospital. I agreed just as another contraction hit, and I was on my knees leaning over the bed. I mentioned that I might throw up (another sign that you were getting close), and Kimberly grabbed the trash can from the bathroom to bring in the car just in case.
We made it through the house to the garage while everyone was deciding who was going in which car. Kimberly asked if I wanted her in the car with us or if she should take her own, and I knew I’d need her with us to get through the 10 minute ride to the hospital. HaHa brought Finny outside so I could kiss him goodbye and remind him not to be scared and that he’d be meeting his little sister soon. GaGa was trying to clean out our car so Kimberly could get in the backseat and ride with us, and I realized your dad had placed the bikes in the garage so that I couldn’t open the car door. He had to move the car into the driveway so we could get in, and then we realized that Kimberly had parked her car partially blocking the driveway and we couldn’t get out.
There were a few moments of madness as your dad pulled our car out, Kimberly moved her car, HaHa and Fin said goodbye to everyone, and GaGa made sure she knew her way to the hospital – and all this time I was standing in the middle of the front yard by myself having contractions one on top of the other with nothing to lean on or hold on to and trying not to get too panicked about how quickly things had changed from calm and quiet to too much hustle and bustle.
We finally got in the car and left for the hospital at 8:30am. The contractions were coming hard and fast, and before we had even gone two blocks, I was telling your dad and Kimberly that I needed to PUSH. I felt the urge to push you out so strong that I was worried we were not going to make it to the hospital. Kimberly pointed out that it was too cold to let you be born in the car on the freeway, so if we weren’t going to make it to the hospital, we’d better get back home. Your dad did a quick U-turn, and Kimberly asked me if I could feel your head. I laid the seat all the way down and checked and was very relieved to feel absolutely nothing yet.
Once the seat was reclined and the immediate pressure was off my cervix, the need to push decreased. Keeping my hand down there just in case you decided to come out, I told your dad we could make it to the hospital, I wasn’t going to push, but we had to get there FAST. He did another U-turn and off we went.
During the car ride to the hospital, the contractions were very, very strong, and I could no longer just breathe through them. I knew I couldn’t push yet so instead I yelled. With each contraction, my voice rose as the intensity increased, “OhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHH-kay. Okay, okay, okay.” I had to keep telling myself and you that we were going to be okay, we were going to make it to the hospital and you were going to come out just perfect. Between contractions, we worked on finding a way to call the doctor and tell her we were on our way. We hadn’t called from the house because things weren’t moving so quickly, and once we got in the car, we realized that your dad’s cell phone barely had enough battery power to make the call and my cell phone was in my purse – under the seat. Your dad was eventually able to grab my purse for Kimberly to make the call, and we knew Dr. Brass would be on her way soon.
We arrived at the hospital and a nurse ran out to meet us with a wheelchair. I knew I was going to have to move my hand to get out of the car, but I was terrified. During the contractions, I had felt quite a bit of fluid continuing to gush out of me. I knew when I moved my hand I’d have to see if it was blood or just amniotic fluid. When your brother was born the blood during the contractions was the first sign that something was wrong and I was so scared that I would see that again. But with your dad, Kimberly and the nurse all waiting for me to get out of the car, I just took a deep breath and pulled my hand away. Everything was clear, so I knew we were both still doing just fine. I moved into the wheelchair and the contractions continued one on top of the other as they pushed me into the hospital.
As they wheeled me quickly to Labor & Delivery, I kept yelling through the contractions and feeling gush after gush of fluid come out. Kimberly later told me we left a trail of fluid from the car to the delivery room. The nurses kept asking who our doctor was, if you were my first baby, when my water broke, etc. When they learned I was having a VBAC and that our doctor was not there yet, they went into a bit of panic and started paging any OB in the hospital and any anesthesiologist to come to us just in case something went wrong and we needed emergency surgery, though I knew all of that would be unnecessary.
We got into our room and I moved to the bed so the nurses could see how close you were to coming out. As we expected, I was completely dilated and ready to push. I asked what time it was again between contractions and it was 8:51am. I had been in labor for four hours and we knew you were only a short time away from joining us.
While we were getting situated in the hospital room, I realized that there were about 20 various hospital staff bustling around the room to make sure we were ready if you came before our doctor arrived. They were getting me hooked up to monitors, trying to take my blood pressure and give me an IV all while I was having very strong contractions and continuing to yell “OhhHHHHHHHHHHH-kay” through them all. They blew through two veins trying to get the IV in and I even stopped in the middle of one contraction to ask them to please wait until the contraction was over before sticking me with another needle.
In the very short pauses between contractions, I talked to your dad and Kimberly and they fed me ice chips. My yelling through the contractions varied between “Okay” and a few “Woooo-hoooo!”s as I got more excited that you were on your way. I even sang a bit to your dad between contractions because our little family was growing and we were about to have a daughter.
Finally, after about 20 minutes Dr. Brass arrived at the hospital. She had been pulled over by a police officer for speeding on her way to meet us, but luckily he believed her when she said she had a patient in labor and did not give her a ticket. She watched through a few contractions and felt where you were and told me it was time to push you out. Your dad, Kimberly and a couple of the nurses in the room helped get me into a position to push and then… I pushed.
Someone mentioned they could see your head and as I opened my eyes, I saw that your dad had seen you. I asked if it looked cool or gross and he said “cool” so I asked for a mirror so I could watch you come out, too. The nurses quickly wheeled a mirror so I could see and I pushed again. Sure enough, I could see the top of your little head as you came out of me! It was very cool (but also kind of gross.)
I continued pushing for a few minutes, with the doctor and nurses telling me when to hold my breath, push, and breathe again. I thought it was funny when they would tell me to take another deep breath because they didn’t know we had been practicing hypnobirthing and yoga breathing and I was never actually out of breath yet when they would tell me to breathe again. As we got closer, the doctor eventually decided you needed a little extra oxygen, so they gave me an oxygen mask and I really worked on getting you out. Two more pushes and I felt the burning sensation of your head actually coming in to the world. I opened my eyes just in time to see your whole head come out – you had such sweet round little cheeks! Dr. Brass did a quick suction of your mouth and nose and I gave one more push and your whole tiny little body just slid right out.
And there you were – perfect and healthy in every way. Everything we had done to keep you in long enough and make sure you had time to grow big and strong had paid off. You were finally here! You were born at 9:31am on Wednesday, November 28, 2007 and weighed 7lbs, 3.3oz and were 20.5 inches long. Your Apgar score was a 9 both times.
Dr. Brass knew we wanted to keep you close right away, so they placed you on my chest immediately and put a blanket over us to keep you warm. Your dad and I just kissed you and stared at you and kissed each other in amazement. You stared back and after a few minutes you gave a little cry to let us all know your lungs were good and strong. Dr. Brass soon said that your umbilical cord had stopped pulsing and asked if your dad wanted to cut the cord. He was a little unsure but did it anyway.
I got to hold you and cuddle with you for a while, then your dad got to hold and cuddle with you while I got stitched up and cleaned up a bit. You were even ready to try to nurse pretty quickly and were great at latching on from the very start. Once all the cleaning and initial bonding was done, Kimberly asked if we were ready for visitors and we said yes. Someone went and got your GaGa from the waiting room and the stream of people who love you and want to hold you and kiss you began.
We eventually moved into a room for recovery and HaHa brought your big brother Fin to meet you. He had picked out a special “Happy Birthday” balloon as a gift to you and as soon as he was lifted into my bed to meet you, the first thing he said was “Tickle Baby Greta” as he reached out to you. Like everyone else, he gave you lots of hugs and kisses and was very happy to meet you.
We only had to stay in the hospital one night and you were never more than a few inches away from us except for the one time they had to take you to be weighed after your middle of the night feeding. Otherwise, you have been within reach of a parent or grandparent every single moment of your life, which is so nice and different from the experience of your brother being in the NICU for so many days.
We came home and we have discovered that you are a good nurser, a good sleeper and almost never cry or complain unless you’re cold and getting your diaper changed. Your big brother just wants to show you everything he knows and play with you all day long and doesn’t recognize that you’re still too little for most of the toys he wants to share with you.
We are very, very blessed to have you as our daughter. Even though you haven’t done much more than eat, sleep and stare at us over the last two weeks, we all agree that you are so beautiful, so sweet and so wonderful. Thank you for joining our family and making our home complete. We love you sweet baby girl.
Love,
Mommy
The letter I wrote her about it last year is long, but, well... it was a big day for both of us. I figured she'd like the details some day.
Enjoy.
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13 December 2007
A Letter to My Sweet Baby Greta About Your Birth –
When I first found out I was pregnant, I instantly knew we’d be having a daughter and I was so excited but also a little scared. Your brother’s arrival had been terrifying and I didn’t quite know what to expect this time around.
The first half of our pregnancy was pretty uneventful – I was tired and queasy, but that was not at all uncommon. By the middle of the pregnancy, however, you were starting to show signs of being up to your big brother’s antics in the womb. Just like Fin, you and my body had teamed up to start causing a lot of contractions very early on. Luckily, this time we knew to take the contractions seriously and take precautions to make sure you didn’t arrive too early like Fin did.
We had shopped around for a doctor who would let us have a natural, drug-free birth this time after having had Fin by Caesarian section and found a doctor your dad and I both really liked and trusted. As much as we all wanted to go the non-medical route for your delivery, we knew we’d have to take some medical precautions and interventions to make sure you stayed in full-term and were healthy.
At 24 weeks, I was having so many contractions that the doctor wanted me to go to the hospital to be monitored. We ended up having to have two doses of drugs to get things to calm down and were eventually sent home. Two weeks later, at my monthly doctor’s appointment, we decided it was time to start the active process of keeping you inside. I was given a prescription for drugs to take at home when the contractions started up again and I was started on weekly hormone shots as well. We also got sent a machine to monitor my contractions every day, so for an hour every morning and every evening, I had to lie very still while attached to a machine so we could keep tabs on what you were doing in there. If things were too active, I had to take more drugs and do a bunch of things to try to get the contractions to stop – and then spend at least another hour on the machine. From 27 weeks on, I was talking to the nurses at least twice a day, and taking drugs to stop the contractions several times a week. At 28 weeks, despite our efforts to keep the contractions calm, my cervix was starting to dilate, which was not the news we wanted to hear. I was officially put on bedrest until at least 36 weeks.
After two weeks of bedrest, my cervix was even more dilated so I started having to take the drugs every 4 hours all day long to keep the contractions under control. I even had to wake up during the night to take them. And with the additional dilation, our doctor decided we needed to have a steroid shot to mature your lungs just in case you decided to show up early. The combination of the drugs to stop the contractions, the weekly hormone shots and the steroid shot for your lungs caused a terrible migraine headache that lasted six days. That was the least fun part of the entire pregnancy, but I knew it would all be worth it when you came out healthy and full-term. We managed the rest of the pregnancy with the drugs, but also with weekly acupuncture visits, chiropractic adjustments and pregnancy massage.
For the next several weeks, we seemed to have things under control. I was still having contractions every day and occasionally having to do extra monitoring sessions to get them under control, but I was not getting more dilated and you seemed happy to stay inside me for a while longer.
Finally, after 9 weeks of hormone shots, 8 weeks of daily contraction monitoring and 7 weeks of bedrest, I was allowed to be a “normal” pregnant woman again. We were officially 36 weeks along and while we still wanted you to stay in a few more weeks, we knew you’d be healthy and okay if you decided to show up. I had been telling you all along that you just had to stay in until Thanksgiving and then you were welcome to come out.
The day before Thanksgiving and Thanksgiving Day itself, I was having a lot of contractions and we all thought you’d be making an appearance very soon. However, things never really picked up, the contractions didn’t become regular enough to time and you decided to stay put. The Tuesday after Thanksgiving, we had another doctor’s appointment and learned that I was indeed dilating more (3cm, 80% effaced) and that you could come any day or still decide to stay put for a few more weeks. At this point, your dad and I were both very eager and excited to meet you, but also knew that every day you stayed inside was a day you could grow bigger and stronger before meeting the world.
The morning of that doctor’s visit, I was having more contractions but still not enough to time or to call true labor, but I knew things were starting to pick up. I decided to have lunch with a friend at the mall and walk around a bit to see if labor would start on its own. I didn’t start having more regular contractions, but I did have a bit of bloody show and I knew that losing my mucus plug was an early sign of labor. I was very excited to think I’d be meeting you in just a few days!
That night, things went pretty much as usual. I had some stronger contractions, but just like they had been for the last few days. We went to bed knowing you may be here in a few days or another week.
At about 2:30am your big brother Fin woke up and decided he needed some Mommy time. He wasn’t fussy or crying, he was just awake and wanting to cuddle with Mommy. We snuggled and talked and giggled in bed for a couple of hours and he finally fell asleep again at about 4:45am. Once he was asleep, I got up to use the bathroom and tried to go back to sleep myself.
I was lying in bed just dozing off when I suddenly felt a sharp pinch. I thought “Ow – that’s weird” and then felt a POP! I got up and hurried back to the bathroom and sure enough – GUSH – my water had broken! It was 4:55am on Tuesday, November 28, 2007 and I knew we’d be meeting our little girl in a few hours!
I woke up your dad and whispered to him that my water had broken. I wasn’t feeling contractions yet and knew they could take a while to start, but with your brother they had started right away and been very close together. I thought you’d give us a little more time, so I told your dad to go back to sleep and tried to lay back down myself to get some rest since I’d already been awake for a few hours with Fin. Of course, by this time I was too excited to sleep so I just tried to rest. Within a few minutes the contractions started and I began timing them. They were 5 minutes apart, but not too painful so I just waited and talked to you and to my body about how we were going to do this together and how excited I was to finally meet you.
I sent an email to work to let them know I would not be on that morning’s conference call and called our doula Kimberly about an hour after my water broke. She suggested going back to sleep also, but I knew that was going to be impossible. I called your grandpa Terry and aunt Kiza in Texas to let them know you were on your way and called both of your grandmothers who live here in town to let them know it was time. Your HaHa was going to be with Finny while we went to the hospital and your GaGa was going to come with us to help welcome you to the world. After all these phone calls, I finally called Kimberly back to let her know that the contractions were getting more intense and it was time for her to come over. I decided to take a shower to help deal with the contractions while we waited for Kimberly, HaHa and GaGa to get to our house.
By about 7am everyone had arrived. Fin was still asleep, your dad and Kimberly were helping me through the contractions using the hypnobirth relaxation techniques we’d been practicing, and GaGa and HaHa were bustling about to make sure everything was ready to go when we needed to get to the hospital. Fin suddenly woke up in the other room and was not happy to find himself alone, so your dad and I crawled back into bed with Fin to let him know that his little sister Baby Greta was finally on her way. He’d been talking to you and giving you kisses in my belly for months. He kept asking you to come out and play with him and he was very excited to learn that he was finally going to get to meet you.
We ended up sitting in the bed relaxing through the contractions for a while. Your dad brought me snacks and Kimberly massaged my feet while GaGa sat and worried about us (it’s what she does…). Finally, I told your dad I needed him to come sit behind me, and he propped himself up on pillows so I could lean against him as we breathed and relaxed through the contractions that were bringing you closer and closer to us. Fin eventually crawled back in bed with us and we spent a few last minutes as our family of just three celebrating that were about to grow to a loving family of four.
After a while, the contractions were getting harder to just relax and breathe through, so I thought walking around would help. As I moved off the bed I suddenly felt the need to use the bathroom again. Kimberly asked if I had already gone a few times that morning and I had, so we both knew this was a clear sign that you were moving lower. Our time at home was almost done.
I went into the bathroom and had a contraction so strong that I was on my knees holding on to the towel rod to get through it. As I walked out of the bathroom, both your dad and Kimberly were standing and saying it was time to go to the hospital. I agreed just as another contraction hit, and I was on my knees leaning over the bed. I mentioned that I might throw up (another sign that you were getting close), and Kimberly grabbed the trash can from the bathroom to bring in the car just in case.
We made it through the house to the garage while everyone was deciding who was going in which car. Kimberly asked if I wanted her in the car with us or if she should take her own, and I knew I’d need her with us to get through the 10 minute ride to the hospital. HaHa brought Finny outside so I could kiss him goodbye and remind him not to be scared and that he’d be meeting his little sister soon. GaGa was trying to clean out our car so Kimberly could get in the backseat and ride with us, and I realized your dad had placed the bikes in the garage so that I couldn’t open the car door. He had to move the car into the driveway so we could get in, and then we realized that Kimberly had parked her car partially blocking the driveway and we couldn’t get out.
There were a few moments of madness as your dad pulled our car out, Kimberly moved her car, HaHa and Fin said goodbye to everyone, and GaGa made sure she knew her way to the hospital – and all this time I was standing in the middle of the front yard by myself having contractions one on top of the other with nothing to lean on or hold on to and trying not to get too panicked about how quickly things had changed from calm and quiet to too much hustle and bustle.
We finally got in the car and left for the hospital at 8:30am. The contractions were coming hard and fast, and before we had even gone two blocks, I was telling your dad and Kimberly that I needed to PUSH. I felt the urge to push you out so strong that I was worried we were not going to make it to the hospital. Kimberly pointed out that it was too cold to let you be born in the car on the freeway, so if we weren’t going to make it to the hospital, we’d better get back home. Your dad did a quick U-turn, and Kimberly asked me if I could feel your head. I laid the seat all the way down and checked and was very relieved to feel absolutely nothing yet.
Once the seat was reclined and the immediate pressure was off my cervix, the need to push decreased. Keeping my hand down there just in case you decided to come out, I told your dad we could make it to the hospital, I wasn’t going to push, but we had to get there FAST. He did another U-turn and off we went.
During the car ride to the hospital, the contractions were very, very strong, and I could no longer just breathe through them. I knew I couldn’t push yet so instead I yelled. With each contraction, my voice rose as the intensity increased, “OhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHH-kay. Okay, okay, okay.” I had to keep telling myself and you that we were going to be okay, we were going to make it to the hospital and you were going to come out just perfect. Between contractions, we worked on finding a way to call the doctor and tell her we were on our way. We hadn’t called from the house because things weren’t moving so quickly, and once we got in the car, we realized that your dad’s cell phone barely had enough battery power to make the call and my cell phone was in my purse – under the seat. Your dad was eventually able to grab my purse for Kimberly to make the call, and we knew Dr. Brass would be on her way soon.
We arrived at the hospital and a nurse ran out to meet us with a wheelchair. I knew I was going to have to move my hand to get out of the car, but I was terrified. During the contractions, I had felt quite a bit of fluid continuing to gush out of me. I knew when I moved my hand I’d have to see if it was blood or just amniotic fluid. When your brother was born the blood during the contractions was the first sign that something was wrong and I was so scared that I would see that again. But with your dad, Kimberly and the nurse all waiting for me to get out of the car, I just took a deep breath and pulled my hand away. Everything was clear, so I knew we were both still doing just fine. I moved into the wheelchair and the contractions continued one on top of the other as they pushed me into the hospital.
As they wheeled me quickly to Labor & Delivery, I kept yelling through the contractions and feeling gush after gush of fluid come out. Kimberly later told me we left a trail of fluid from the car to the delivery room. The nurses kept asking who our doctor was, if you were my first baby, when my water broke, etc. When they learned I was having a VBAC and that our doctor was not there yet, they went into a bit of panic and started paging any OB in the hospital and any anesthesiologist to come to us just in case something went wrong and we needed emergency surgery, though I knew all of that would be unnecessary.
We got into our room and I moved to the bed so the nurses could see how close you were to coming out. As we expected, I was completely dilated and ready to push. I asked what time it was again between contractions and it was 8:51am. I had been in labor for four hours and we knew you were only a short time away from joining us.
While we were getting situated in the hospital room, I realized that there were about 20 various hospital staff bustling around the room to make sure we were ready if you came before our doctor arrived. They were getting me hooked up to monitors, trying to take my blood pressure and give me an IV all while I was having very strong contractions and continuing to yell “OhhHHHHHHHHHHH-kay” through them all. They blew through two veins trying to get the IV in and I even stopped in the middle of one contraction to ask them to please wait until the contraction was over before sticking me with another needle.
In the very short pauses between contractions, I talked to your dad and Kimberly and they fed me ice chips. My yelling through the contractions varied between “Okay” and a few “Woooo-hoooo!”s as I got more excited that you were on your way. I even sang a bit to your dad between contractions because our little family was growing and we were about to have a daughter.
Finally, after about 20 minutes Dr. Brass arrived at the hospital. She had been pulled over by a police officer for speeding on her way to meet us, but luckily he believed her when she said she had a patient in labor and did not give her a ticket. She watched through a few contractions and felt where you were and told me it was time to push you out. Your dad, Kimberly and a couple of the nurses in the room helped get me into a position to push and then… I pushed.
Someone mentioned they could see your head and as I opened my eyes, I saw that your dad had seen you. I asked if it looked cool or gross and he said “cool” so I asked for a mirror so I could watch you come out, too. The nurses quickly wheeled a mirror so I could see and I pushed again. Sure enough, I could see the top of your little head as you came out of me! It was very cool (but also kind of gross.)
I continued pushing for a few minutes, with the doctor and nurses telling me when to hold my breath, push, and breathe again. I thought it was funny when they would tell me to take another deep breath because they didn’t know we had been practicing hypnobirthing and yoga breathing and I was never actually out of breath yet when they would tell me to breathe again. As we got closer, the doctor eventually decided you needed a little extra oxygen, so they gave me an oxygen mask and I really worked on getting you out. Two more pushes and I felt the burning sensation of your head actually coming in to the world. I opened my eyes just in time to see your whole head come out – you had such sweet round little cheeks! Dr. Brass did a quick suction of your mouth and nose and I gave one more push and your whole tiny little body just slid right out.
And there you were – perfect and healthy in every way. Everything we had done to keep you in long enough and make sure you had time to grow big and strong had paid off. You were finally here! You were born at 9:31am on Wednesday, November 28, 2007 and weighed 7lbs, 3.3oz and were 20.5 inches long. Your Apgar score was a 9 both times.
Dr. Brass knew we wanted to keep you close right away, so they placed you on my chest immediately and put a blanket over us to keep you warm. Your dad and I just kissed you and stared at you and kissed each other in amazement. You stared back and after a few minutes you gave a little cry to let us all know your lungs were good and strong. Dr. Brass soon said that your umbilical cord had stopped pulsing and asked if your dad wanted to cut the cord. He was a little unsure but did it anyway.
I got to hold you and cuddle with you for a while, then your dad got to hold and cuddle with you while I got stitched up and cleaned up a bit. You were even ready to try to nurse pretty quickly and were great at latching on from the very start. Once all the cleaning and initial bonding was done, Kimberly asked if we were ready for visitors and we said yes. Someone went and got your GaGa from the waiting room and the stream of people who love you and want to hold you and kiss you began.
We eventually moved into a room for recovery and HaHa brought your big brother Fin to meet you. He had picked out a special “Happy Birthday” balloon as a gift to you and as soon as he was lifted into my bed to meet you, the first thing he said was “Tickle Baby Greta” as he reached out to you. Like everyone else, he gave you lots of hugs and kisses and was very happy to meet you.
We only had to stay in the hospital one night and you were never more than a few inches away from us except for the one time they had to take you to be weighed after your middle of the night feeding. Otherwise, you have been within reach of a parent or grandparent every single moment of your life, which is so nice and different from the experience of your brother being in the NICU for so many days.
We came home and we have discovered that you are a good nurser, a good sleeper and almost never cry or complain unless you’re cold and getting your diaper changed. Your big brother just wants to show you everything he knows and play with you all day long and doesn’t recognize that you’re still too little for most of the toys he wants to share with you.
We are very, very blessed to have you as our daughter. Even though you haven’t done much more than eat, sleep and stare at us over the last two weeks, we all agree that you are so beautiful, so sweet and so wonderful. Thank you for joining our family and making our home complete. We love you sweet baby girl.
Love,
Mommy
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
So Much to do, and in Denial
I am hiding my head in the dirt trying not to admit that my baby girl is going to be a year old in only a few short days.
I am overwhelemd and busy with so many things - work, Thanksgiving, cleaning the house for Kiza and Colin to come visit this week, planning menus and grocery trips for baking cakes and special treats - it's easy to just push it out of my head and pretend time is not flying right by.
Fin has a new obsession with Finding Nemo these days. We've all been very sick this month (and Dave keeps throwing his back out) so he's been watching it almost daily.
Last night after we "watched the whole song" at the end (the credits) I turned to Dave with tears in my eyes and asked him what we were going to do about the kids.
He had no idea what I was talking about and said he didn't know we needed to do anything about the kids.
I explained that they were taking it upon themselves to grow up while I'm not looking. While I'm at work and missing them. While I'm sleeping (or not sleeping, at their discretion). While I'm busy cleaning, planning grocery trips, doing laundry, designing holiday cards, shopping for birthdays and Christmas - they just keep growing up.
I don't want it to stop, of course. I just want to see more of it. Enjoy it, marvel at their wonder and insightfulness and all the silly, cute, amazing things they do every day. I wish I had a camera on them 24 hours a day so I wouldn't miss a moment of their amazingness.
Dave replied, "Oh, if only there was a movie you could watch several times a week that told you how good it is to let them go and grow up and be themselves..."
Dude, my kids aren't fish.
Just don't tell Fin that. He's been Nemo all week, Dave is Marlon, I'm Dory and Greta gets to be the starfish. Her name in the movie is "Peach", but Fin just calls her Starfish. Starfish will be one year old in 3 days.
Ack.
I am overwhelemd and busy with so many things - work, Thanksgiving, cleaning the house for Kiza and Colin to come visit this week, planning menus and grocery trips for baking cakes and special treats - it's easy to just push it out of my head and pretend time is not flying right by.
Fin has a new obsession with Finding Nemo these days. We've all been very sick this month (and Dave keeps throwing his back out) so he's been watching it almost daily.
Last night after we "watched the whole song" at the end (the credits) I turned to Dave with tears in my eyes and asked him what we were going to do about the kids.
He had no idea what I was talking about and said he didn't know we needed to do anything about the kids.
I explained that they were taking it upon themselves to grow up while I'm not looking. While I'm at work and missing them. While I'm sleeping (or not sleeping, at their discretion). While I'm busy cleaning, planning grocery trips, doing laundry, designing holiday cards, shopping for birthdays and Christmas - they just keep growing up.
I don't want it to stop, of course. I just want to see more of it. Enjoy it, marvel at their wonder and insightfulness and all the silly, cute, amazing things they do every day. I wish I had a camera on them 24 hours a day so I wouldn't miss a moment of their amazingness.
Dave replied, "Oh, if only there was a movie you could watch several times a week that told you how good it is to let them go and grow up and be themselves..."
Dude, my kids aren't fish.
Just don't tell Fin that. He's been Nemo all week, Dave is Marlon, I'm Dory and Greta gets to be the starfish. Her name in the movie is "Peach", but Fin just calls her Starfish. Starfish will be one year old in 3 days.
Ack.
Friday, November 21, 2008
A Year Ago This Week...
I was finally taken off bedrest! I was 36 weeks pregnant and Greta was looking great, so the concerns about her arriving early were shrinking. That 2 months in bed plus many, many drugs had worked!
We celebrated by getting some maternity pictures taken since I had never gotten them done with Fin (he surprised us by showing up a few days before we had scheduled the pictures).
All of these were taken by my amazingly talented friend Michele. Check out her awesome work at Michele Stange Photography.
Greta arrived a few days later, healthy and happy and wonderful.
We celebrated by getting some maternity pictures taken since I had never gotten them done with Fin (he surprised us by showing up a few days before we had scheduled the pictures).
All of these were taken by my amazingly talented friend Michele. Check out her awesome work at Michele Stange Photography.
Greta arrived a few days later, healthy and happy and wonderful.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Nine Years Ago Today...
Dave and I had our first date.
Those weeks turned in to months and before we knew it, Dave just never left Phoenix. We did actually take a road trip out to LA shortly after we started dating to find him an apartment, but he never moved. I did get a great picture of him on the beach in Malibu, though.
It's crazy that he was 22 and I was 24 when we met. Doesn't he look so young?
Now, here are a few more pictures from the last nine years as I stroll down memory lane today.
At Rachael's 30th b-day disco party in Austin.
At his mom's house in Florida when his short film was in the Florida Film Festival.
This is the closest thing we have to an actual engagement picture. We got engaged on December 10, 2003, then on January 15, 2004 we decided to scrap all the wedding planning and just get hitched in Texas in two weeks.
And we did. :) This is the big day, February 1, 2004. Could my grin be any bigger? Hard to believe we're quickly approaching the fifth anniversary of our wedding, too.
And this is us celebrating our first wedding anniversary.
By the end of that year, I was Dr. Benah. Fin arrived and turned us into parents less than 24 hours after this picture was taken. No one believed me about being in labor during graduation. Heck, I didn't even believe it myself!
And this is the most recent picture that I have of all four of us. We've come a long way in nine years and I'm so lucky to have Dave as my best friend, husband and partner in everything.
I love you, cutie butt! Thanks for an amazing nine years already!
It's been wonderful and amazing ever since. I remember calling my mom afterwards and she asked what we did. I replied, "We laughed." It was great. There was mini-golf and Pita Jungle in there, too, but mostly it was just laughing and laughing together.
Dave was only supposed to be in town for a few weeks visiting his dad as he drove across the country to start his film career in LA. I was coming off a bad breakup of a long-term relationship and we both thought it would just be fun to hang out for a few weeks.
Those weeks turned in to months and before we knew it, Dave just never left Phoenix. We did actually take a road trip out to LA shortly after we started dating to find him an apartment, but he never moved. I did get a great picture of him on the beach in Malibu, though.
It's crazy that he was 22 and I was 24 when we met. Doesn't he look so young?
Now, here are a few more pictures from the last nine years as I stroll down memory lane today.
At Rachael's 30th b-day disco party in Austin.
At his mom's house in Florida when his short film was in the Florida Film Festival.
This is the closest thing we have to an actual engagement picture. We got engaged on December 10, 2003, then on January 15, 2004 we decided to scrap all the wedding planning and just get hitched in Texas in two weeks.
And we did. :) This is the big day, February 1, 2004. Could my grin be any bigger? Hard to believe we're quickly approaching the fifth anniversary of our wedding, too.
We took a great two week honeymoon to Hawaii a few months later.
And this is us celebrating our first wedding anniversary.
By the end of that year, I was Dr. Benah. Fin arrived and turned us into parents less than 24 hours after this picture was taken. No one believed me about being in labor during graduation. Heck, I didn't even believe it myself!
And this is the most recent picture that I have of all four of us. We've come a long way in nine years and I'm so lucky to have Dave as my best friend, husband and partner in everything.
I love you, cutie butt! Thanks for an amazing nine years already!
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Well, Would you Look at That?
One of my crafty things has been featured over at Ohana Mama. Kinda cool, huh?
I taught a summer school class to my online mommy group and Sarah of Ohana Mama decided it was worth reprinting on her blog to share with more mamas. I'm flattered. ;) Thanks, Sarah!
I taught a summer school class to my online mommy group and Sarah of Ohana Mama decided it was worth reprinting on her blog to share with more mamas. I'm flattered. ;) Thanks, Sarah!
Monday, November 10, 2008
Using Fin's Full Name
We went out to dinner with friends this weekend and I found myself using Fin's full name twice while out in public. As you probably know, anything that requires the middle name coming out is probably not a good thing...
All day on Saturday we told Fin that if he used the potty all day with no accidents, stopped whining, didn't yell, and got his feet out of his sister's face (among other things) he could have some lemon cake after dinner at Joe's BBQ. He did a pretty good job, so we got the cake when we got the food. Turns out the temptation was a bit too great for the poor kid.
Joe's is a restaurant that is great for the kiddos because they have a huge (fenced-in) yard for them to run wild while still being mostly captive. So when Fin kept getting up from his seat to walk around the table, it was no big deal and very appropriate for the setting. However, I kept an eye on him and he would inch ever-closer to the tantalizing cake. I kept returning him to his seat and telling him he had to actually eat some food before he could have the cake.
But we were there with a fairly large group, kids were running all around, there were balloon animals being made and popped, and I looked up just as Fin was digging both hands into the cake and lifting it off the plate. Before I knew it, guess what came out of my mouth.
"Finian Xavier, put down that cake and eat some dinner! Two bites of corn is not dinner!"
I couldn't believe how much of a mom I sounded like in that moment. Little did I know what was to come...
Fin eventually sat down, ate some dinner, enjoyed a few bites of cake and then ate some more dinner - then it was time to play! He happily ran around with his friends and played in the dirt. Dave decided to take Fin's balloon monkey out to the car so it didn't get popped and I visited with my friends while we watched the kids play.
I suddenly realized I couldn't see Fin and peered around the yard looking for him. I could not believe the sight that met my eyes.
Pants at his ankles, penis out, peeing in the grass mere feet from other dining families and kids running and playing.
Yep - the whole name came out in shock, then I was completely speechless and laughing. Unfortunately, I was holding Greta at the time so I didn't have a free hand to help him pull his pants back up. Dave appeared a moment later and grabbed Greta, but all the while Fin was just confused and saying, "Daddy lets me pee in the grass at home!"
Niiiice.
Obviously, we didn't take any pictures of that special moment in the night, but I did get a few good shots that evening.
Fin and his friend Will doing what boys do in the dirt.
All day on Saturday we told Fin that if he used the potty all day with no accidents, stopped whining, didn't yell, and got his feet out of his sister's face (among other things) he could have some lemon cake after dinner at Joe's BBQ. He did a pretty good job, so we got the cake when we got the food. Turns out the temptation was a bit too great for the poor kid.
Joe's is a restaurant that is great for the kiddos because they have a huge (fenced-in) yard for them to run wild while still being mostly captive. So when Fin kept getting up from his seat to walk around the table, it was no big deal and very appropriate for the setting. However, I kept an eye on him and he would inch ever-closer to the tantalizing cake. I kept returning him to his seat and telling him he had to actually eat some food before he could have the cake.
But we were there with a fairly large group, kids were running all around, there were balloon animals being made and popped, and I looked up just as Fin was digging both hands into the cake and lifting it off the plate. Before I knew it, guess what came out of my mouth.
"Finian Xavier, put down that cake and eat some dinner! Two bites of corn is not dinner!"
I couldn't believe how much of a mom I sounded like in that moment. Little did I know what was to come...
Fin eventually sat down, ate some dinner, enjoyed a few bites of cake and then ate some more dinner - then it was time to play! He happily ran around with his friends and played in the dirt. Dave decided to take Fin's balloon monkey out to the car so it didn't get popped and I visited with my friends while we watched the kids play.
I suddenly realized I couldn't see Fin and peered around the yard looking for him. I could not believe the sight that met my eyes.
Pants at his ankles, penis out, peeing in the grass mere feet from other dining families and kids running and playing.
Yep - the whole name came out in shock, then I was completely speechless and laughing. Unfortunately, I was holding Greta at the time so I didn't have a free hand to help him pull his pants back up. Dave appeared a moment later and grabbed Greta, but all the while Fin was just confused and saying, "Daddy lets me pee in the grass at home!"
Niiiice.
Obviously, we didn't take any pictures of that special moment in the night, but I did get a few good shots that evening.
Fin and his friend Will doing what boys do in the dirt.
All the mamas. L to R: Meredith, me and Greta, Claire, Robyn and Jenn. And Greta kept reaching over and groping Claire while we were trying to take this picture. LOL. Yep, my kids were all about being socially acceptable that evening. *snort*
Fin and Greta wrestling. She's little, but she can hold her own against Fin already!
A sweet moment with Daddy.
We will be having a big talk about appropriate places to use the bathroom before we go to Joe's again.
I've Been Tagged
My friend Erin over at The Mom Buzz tagged me! This means I'm supposed to share seven things I learned during my first month as a mom. But that was almost three sleep-deprived years ago (seriously - how in the world is my first-born almost THREE???) so I'll see what I can come up with as a mishmash of learnings from these two amazing kiddos.
1. C-sections suck, but a healthy baby is worth it. (The VBAC with Greta was so much better!)
2. Some of the happiest words the mom of a preemie can hear are "We're going to treat your baby like a healthy baby instead of a sick baby now."
3. Newborns make scary, terrifying choking sounds in their sleep. That's normal.
4. It is NOT normal for your baby to scream all the time when they are awake and only sleep in 15 minute chunks from sheer exhaustion.
5. Mom instincts - even new mom instincts - can tell a mom when her baby is hurting.
6. Infant reflux is miserable.
7. Finding a pediatrician who listens to you, trusts you and respects your parenting decisions is of utmost importance.
Hmm - those really seem like downer things to think of, but I've never sugar coated the fact that Fin's first few months were HARD. We did eventually get his reflux diagnosed and treated, but he was about 6 weeks old at the time. That first month was just a blur of painful recovery from a terrifying birth experience and bad surgery, having a preemie and trying to find any way he would sleep, then making it day to day by sheer force of will.
We did have some very sweet, amazing moments with Fin when he was tiny, but those first few months were rough.
Okay, now I'm supposed to tag a few more moms and get that mom-wisdom flowing!
TAG!
1. Crystal at Hippie Diva
2. Lee at MySentimentExactLee
3. Heather at The Misadventures of a Blushing Mommy
4. Katherine at KatherineDPhotography
1. C-sections suck, but a healthy baby is worth it. (The VBAC with Greta was so much better!)
2. Some of the happiest words the mom of a preemie can hear are "We're going to treat your baby like a healthy baby instead of a sick baby now."
3. Newborns make scary, terrifying choking sounds in their sleep. That's normal.
4. It is NOT normal for your baby to scream all the time when they are awake and only sleep in 15 minute chunks from sheer exhaustion.
5. Mom instincts - even new mom instincts - can tell a mom when her baby is hurting.
6. Infant reflux is miserable.
7. Finding a pediatrician who listens to you, trusts you and respects your parenting decisions is of utmost importance.
Hmm - those really seem like downer things to think of, but I've never sugar coated the fact that Fin's first few months were HARD. We did eventually get his reflux diagnosed and treated, but he was about 6 weeks old at the time. That first month was just a blur of painful recovery from a terrifying birth experience and bad surgery, having a preemie and trying to find any way he would sleep, then making it day to day by sheer force of will.
We did have some very sweet, amazing moments with Fin when he was tiny, but those first few months were rough.
Okay, now I'm supposed to tag a few more moms and get that mom-wisdom flowing!
TAG!
1. Crystal at Hippie Diva
2. Lee at MySentimentExactLee
3. Heather at The Misadventures of a Blushing Mommy
4. Katherine at KatherineDPhotography
Monday, November 3, 2008
The Official Halloween Recap
We started the evening out over at PopPop Doug and Carol's house so the kids could go trick-or-treating with their uncle Liam. The boys had to investigate the pumpkin, of course.
Have you ever seen a cuter mouse and tiger?
The boys did great going to a few houses. They were very polite and both got a pretty reasonable stash of candy.
Neither Fin nor Greta looks especially happy in this picture, but it really was a fun night.
We headed over to GaGa's house for dinner and a little more trick-or treating later in the evening.
Some of her neighbors were having a block party in a cul-de-sac and Fin wanted to go check out the happenings. One house was a haunted house with a line down the driveway and around the corner - we didn't go in. They also had a live band of kids who were probably 10-13 years old and they were rocking out to Green Day, Nirvana, etc. They had a stage, lights, a projection TV with Halloween trivia on it, everything! It was pretty impressive.
As we approached the first house, the owners called out to Fin to let him know they were sitting in chairs at the end of the driveway. Fin said "Trick or Treat!" to the first man, thanked him for a couple of pieces of candy and then walked over to the woman sitting a couple of chairs away. She also gave him some candy and then Fin noticed the chair in the middle was empty.
So he just scooted himself into the chair and proceeded to watch the show for a few minutes.
GaGa and I were cracking up at how very cute he was. He never looked around to see if we were there; he just knew there was a show going on and he was going to sit down and check it out.
Too bad I didn't have the camera with me for that part of the night.
Friday, October 31, 2008
Happy Halloween!
I dressed the kiddos in their Halloween PJs last night so we'd all wake up in the holiday mood this morning. They were so cute, I had to take pictures and share them. I mean, really, what kind of mom would I be if I didn't share this cuteness?
Baby Boo was in a drumming mood and didn't much want to be bothered by pictures.
Finny was just being silly and cute.
They did a little drumming together. (And how adorable is it that Greta's jammies say BOO on the tushie and feet? LOL)
Happy Halloween to all! I'll post pictures of them in their costumes soon!
Baby Boo was in a drumming mood and didn't much want to be bothered by pictures.
Finny was just being silly and cute.
They did a little drumming together. (And how adorable is it that Greta's jammies say BOO on the tushie and feet? LOL)
Finny's good night kiss to his little sister.
Happy Halloween to all! I'll post pictures of them in their costumes soon!
Saving These for Blackmail Someday...
A friend sent Greta a homemade tutu yesterday. She was already ready for bed when I saw the box by the door, but Fin immediately saw me with a package and assumed it was for him.
I opened it and explained that the gift was for Greta, but he begged me to let him wear it so I relented. I didn't want to crush that creative spirit, after all.
Once I tied it on him, he immediately started spinning around and singing. I can only imagine how pretty the shiny fabric looked from his vantage point as he spun under the lights.
I finally got him to stand still for a moment and he looks like we forced him into the thing! LOL
When GaGa offered him her hand to spin again, he happily grabbed it and began twirling. This time, he kept saying, "This skirt makes me want to dance!"
This is such a fun age! Think he'll like me pulling these pictures out when he's 14? ;)
I opened it and explained that the gift was for Greta, but he begged me to let him wear it so I relented. I didn't want to crush that creative spirit, after all.
Once I tied it on him, he immediately started spinning around and singing. I can only imagine how pretty the shiny fabric looked from his vantage point as he spun under the lights.
I finally got him to stand still for a moment and he looks like we forced him into the thing! LOL
When GaGa offered him her hand to spin again, he happily grabbed it and began twirling. This time, he kept saying, "This skirt makes me want to dance!"
This is such a fun age! Think he'll like me pulling these pictures out when he's 14? ;)
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Eleven months old!
I know time seems to go more quickly as you get older, but I had no idea how much more quickly time was going to fly with two kiddos.
Our Greta Boo is already eleven months old and I cannot begin to tell you where the last almost-year has gone. In fact, at this time last year I was laying in bed all day every day, hooked up to a machine several hours a day to monitor the contractions I was having, talking to the nurse twice a day, taking drugs every four hours to try to stop the contractions, and having a nurse come to our house every weekend to give me hormone shots in an effort to keep this baby girl IN.
Obviously, all that worked well and we had a healthy, full term, beautiful baby girl - who is starting to look more and more like a toddler every single day.
Apparently I'm feeling a bit nostalgic today.
So, here's our gorgeous, not-so-little girl!
Can you tell she has a thing about sticking her tongue out?
You can only expect a super-mobile baby to stay in one place for so long. She let me take a few pictures, then made a break for it, though she was happy to stand in the chair and dance for Daddy for a few minutes.
There's that tongue again.
Someone should really tell this girl's parents how unsafe it is to let her stand in a chair like that with a toy in her mouth. What kind of parents does she have???
Dancing for Daddy!
Our Greta Boo is already eleven months old and I cannot begin to tell you where the last almost-year has gone. In fact, at this time last year I was laying in bed all day every day, hooked up to a machine several hours a day to monitor the contractions I was having, talking to the nurse twice a day, taking drugs every four hours to try to stop the contractions, and having a nurse come to our house every weekend to give me hormone shots in an effort to keep this baby girl IN.
Obviously, all that worked well and we had a healthy, full term, beautiful baby girl - who is starting to look more and more like a toddler every single day.
Apparently I'm feeling a bit nostalgic today.
So, here's our gorgeous, not-so-little girl!
Can you tell she has a thing about sticking her tongue out?
You can only expect a super-mobile baby to stay in one place for so long. She let me take a few pictures, then made a break for it, though she was happy to stand in the chair and dance for Daddy for a few minutes.
There's that tongue again.
Someone should really tell this girl's parents how unsafe it is to let her stand in a chair like that with a toy in her mouth. What kind of parents does she have???
Dancing for Daddy!
She's outta here, folks!
Monday, October 27, 2008
My Little Pumpkins at the Patch
It's that time of year again... Time to hit the pumpkin patch in 90+ degree weather. I hear this time of year is something called "fall" in other parts of the world, but it sure was hot here yesterday. The kiddos looked cute, anyway.
Greta Boo wasn't a huge fan of the hay, but she still smiled for us.
Greta Boo wasn't a huge fan of the hay, but she still smiled for us.
Finny is looking like such a big boy these days. I can't believe he's almost 3.
A little Daddy and Greta cuteness
Me and my babies!
Finally, a full family shot. The kids look a little dazed, but at least we're all looking in the general direction of the camera, so I'm calling it a success!
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
How Cute is This?
So, my friend Sarah over at Ohana Mama is doing another giveaway. This time it's for a custom-made CurlyQ Cuties monster doll. These things are so adorable and I want one for both of the kiddos!
I played around with the made-to-order screen and came up with this one for my little teething monster: Green Diva body with bright blue large googly eyes, tongue mouth, and red heart belly. Greta sticks her tongue out all the time these days and I thought she'd enjoy a cuddly doll that did the same.
For Fin, who has recently started talking about keeping each other safe from the scary monsters in the house, I'm hoping this guy would help him conquer those fears: Red Lu body with dark green large googly eyes, small toothy mouth, and purple star belly. That star would help keep him brave, I'm sure!
And yes, I did try to capture the picture of what each of these would look like, but it didn't work. Go play with the made-to-order screen yourself to see what these combos would look like or design your own favorite!
I played around with the made-to-order screen and came up with this one for my little teething monster: Green Diva body with bright blue large googly eyes, tongue mouth, and red heart belly. Greta sticks her tongue out all the time these days and I thought she'd enjoy a cuddly doll that did the same.
For Fin, who has recently started talking about keeping each other safe from the scary monsters in the house, I'm hoping this guy would help him conquer those fears: Red Lu body with dark green large googly eyes, small toothy mouth, and purple star belly. That star would help keep him brave, I'm sure!
And yes, I did try to capture the picture of what each of these would look like, but it didn't work. Go play with the made-to-order screen yourself to see what these combos would look like or design your own favorite!
Success!!!
I certainly don't want to jinx anything, but I think Fin is completely potty trained!
He's been in big boy pants full time for at least a week and I think we've only had (maybe) 3 accidents. He's wearing big boy underwear all night, the bed stays bone dry and he goes potty as soon as he wakes up every single morning!
Dave and I were talking this morning and neither of us could remember when we last put a diaper on him, so I think he's finally done. Of course, he still asks what his "special treat" will be every time he uses the potty so we'll have to wean him off that, but he's going several times a day without being reminded and when we do ask him if he needs to go, he doesn't fight us at all!
And can I tell you how cute it is when he suddenly stops playing, pulls off his pants and runs naked to the bathroom by himself? LOL When I ask him if he needs help, he just yells, "NO!" and keeps on running. And he doesn't! He uses his step stool to climb right up on the regular potty to sit down, or just stands over his little potty and goes. But it is hilarious to see him trying to straddle the little potty, hold on to the wall and squat down a little to make sure he doesn't spray pee everywhere.
Anyway, I'm so proud of him and so glad it seems to have finally clicked! The other day in the car he suddenly said, "I'm a big boy now. I use the potty all the time and now I can go to school like Liam!"
He's been in big boy pants full time for at least a week and I think we've only had (maybe) 3 accidents. He's wearing big boy underwear all night, the bed stays bone dry and he goes potty as soon as he wakes up every single morning!
Dave and I were talking this morning and neither of us could remember when we last put a diaper on him, so I think he's finally done. Of course, he still asks what his "special treat" will be every time he uses the potty so we'll have to wean him off that, but he's going several times a day without being reminded and when we do ask him if he needs to go, he doesn't fight us at all!
And can I tell you how cute it is when he suddenly stops playing, pulls off his pants and runs naked to the bathroom by himself? LOL When I ask him if he needs help, he just yells, "NO!" and keeps on running. And he doesn't! He uses his step stool to climb right up on the regular potty to sit down, or just stands over his little potty and goes. But it is hilarious to see him trying to straddle the little potty, hold on to the wall and squat down a little to make sure he doesn't spray pee everywhere.
Anyway, I'm so proud of him and so glad it seems to have finally clicked! The other day in the car he suddenly said, "I'm a big boy now. I use the potty all the time and now I can go to school like Liam!"
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Greta's latest accomplishments
I cannot believe how quickly this little girl is growing up. When I laid her in her crib last night, she squirmed and crawled a little in her sleep to get comfy and when she stretched out, I swear she had the long, lanky limbs of a toddler already. Sigh...
She's also had two fun milestones in the last couple of days!
She's been pulling up and cruising on furniture for a while now and will often do a single hand hold to stay upright, but whenever she let go completely - plop! - down she'd go on her tushie. But two days ago, she was standing in GaGa's kitchen holding her hands and she suddenly let go and just stood there! She stood for a really long time (okay, about 10 seconds, but that's long when she's never done it before) before she sat down and we haven't gotten her to do it again since then, but it's progress! This one will be walking before I know it, I'm sure.
And since I posted about her signing "birdie" she's started generalizing it and using it whenever she wants to get anyone's attention or point to anything. So it may not really just mean bird anymore, but she has found a word she loves to say! If you ask her if she wants more of anything while she's eating or playing, she'll look right at you and say "buh!".
Now I know this sounds nothing like "more", but she definitely knows what she wants when she says it and if you offer her something more and she doesn't say "buh" she will not pick it up or play with it at all.
Finally, she's been sort of waving for a week or so, but this morning over breakfast, she was practicing opening and closing her hand like a wave. As I left for work, I gave both kids kisses and hugs and as I reached the door, I turned and waved and she gave me a HUGE grin and waved back!
We played that game of waving and saying bye for a few minutes and finally HaHa picked her up and brought her outside to the driveway so she could wave as I left for work.
It was a sweet morning having both of my kiddos standing in the driveway waving as I left for the day.
She's also had two fun milestones in the last couple of days!
She's been pulling up and cruising on furniture for a while now and will often do a single hand hold to stay upright, but whenever she let go completely - plop! - down she'd go on her tushie. But two days ago, she was standing in GaGa's kitchen holding her hands and she suddenly let go and just stood there! She stood for a really long time (okay, about 10 seconds, but that's long when she's never done it before) before she sat down and we haven't gotten her to do it again since then, but it's progress! This one will be walking before I know it, I'm sure.
And since I posted about her signing "birdie" she's started generalizing it and using it whenever she wants to get anyone's attention or point to anything. So it may not really just mean bird anymore, but she has found a word she loves to say! If you ask her if she wants more of anything while she's eating or playing, she'll look right at you and say "buh!".
Now I know this sounds nothing like "more", but she definitely knows what she wants when she says it and if you offer her something more and she doesn't say "buh" she will not pick it up or play with it at all.
Finally, she's been sort of waving for a week or so, but this morning over breakfast, she was practicing opening and closing her hand like a wave. As I left for work, I gave both kids kisses and hugs and as I reached the door, I turned and waved and she gave me a HUGE grin and waved back!
We played that game of waving and saying bye for a few minutes and finally HaHa picked her up and brought her outside to the driveway so she could wave as I left for work.
It was a sweet morning having both of my kiddos standing in the driveway waving as I left for the day.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Happy Birthday HaHa!
Today is my mother-in-law's 60th birthday, so Happy Birthday HaHa (Elaine)! I hope it's a great day for you!
This morning Dave and Fin sat down to make HaHa a birthday card. They pulled out some paper and crayons, sat down at Fin's art table and went to work. I was a few feet away putting away laundry and overheard the following conversation:
Dave: "Nice drawing. What is that? It looks like a heart."
Fin: "No, a butt."
D (laughing): "Okay. And what is this part here?"
F: "A butt face!"
I swear, I really, really, really don't think he's EVER heard the phrase "butt face" anywhere. I think he drew the butt and then tried to put a face on it. But the conversation continued...
D: "What's this part here that's coming out of the butt face?"
F (proudly): "A POOPY!"
Yeah, the potty training is going really well lately. LOL. And of course, poopy is a common topic of conversation around our house, so I'm not surprised it got drawn.
After that exchange, Dave asked if he could label the things in the drawing so HaHa would know what everything was. Fin said sure, so HaHa's birthday card had arrows pointing to a butt, a butt face and a poopy. And Greta did a little scribble for her, too.
I hope turing 60 is this special for all of us!
This morning Dave and Fin sat down to make HaHa a birthday card. They pulled out some paper and crayons, sat down at Fin's art table and went to work. I was a few feet away putting away laundry and overheard the following conversation:
Dave: "Nice drawing. What is that? It looks like a heart."
Fin: "No, a butt."
D (laughing): "Okay. And what is this part here?"
F: "A butt face!"
I swear, I really, really, really don't think he's EVER heard the phrase "butt face" anywhere. I think he drew the butt and then tried to put a face on it. But the conversation continued...
D: "What's this part here that's coming out of the butt face?"
F (proudly): "A POOPY!"
Yeah, the potty training is going really well lately. LOL. And of course, poopy is a common topic of conversation around our house, so I'm not surprised it got drawn.
After that exchange, Dave asked if he could label the things in the drawing so HaHa would know what everything was. Fin said sure, so HaHa's birthday card had arrows pointing to a butt, a butt face and a poopy. And Greta did a little scribble for her, too.
I hope turing 60 is this special for all of us!
Friday, October 17, 2008
Quick favorite
I don't have a real story to tell today, I just keep forgetting to mention one of my favorite Fin-isms these days.
If you ask Fin if he's doing something or you talk about something he's doing to someone within his hearing and he wants to protest or deny those actions, he will often say:
"No, I amn't!"
which I think is one of the cutest things I've heard in my life. He's been saying "I amn't" instead of "I'm not" for a few months now, but it never gets old.
If you ask Fin if he's doing something or you talk about something he's doing to someone within his hearing and he wants to protest or deny those actions, he will often say:
"No, I amn't!"
which I think is one of the cutest things I've heard in my life. He's been saying "I amn't" instead of "I'm not" for a few months now, but it never gets old.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Signing and counting birdies
Greta is working on signing words to us. We're getting her in to a Baby Signs class next month, but we've been showing her the basics - eat, please, more, all done, nurse, kitty cat - for a few months now.
Every once in a while she'll sort of sign "more" to us, but for the most part, she seems to understand the signs more than she'll generate them to actually communicate with us. For example, if she's getting fussy and I sign "nurse" to her, she'll calm down because she knows what's coming.
But in the past week or so, she's developed her own sign! For birds, of all things.
I don't know why she chose "bird" to be her first real sign, but any time we're outside and she sees or hears birds, she does the same thing. It's not the "true" sign for bird, but because it's the same consistent sign and she only does it for birds, it counts. So, when she sees or hears birds, she looks around for them, waves her arm over her heard and goes "ffft" with her mouth.
It's very, very cute, I promise.
And with all the talk of birdies in our house lately, I was reminded of this awesome set of pictures of Fin. So I'm throwing in another Fin story from the mom-memory archives!
A while back (okay, it was February of this year, so Fin was 2yrs, 2 months old here) Fin and GaGa were having lunch at her house. They were talking about all the things they saw out the window and several birds were hanging out on the fence.
Fin was learning to count at that time, so they counted the three birds hanging out there.
Then, as birds will, they flew away.
Fin shouted out, "Come back birdies!" and one did! The look on his face was priceless.
Every once in a while she'll sort of sign "more" to us, but for the most part, she seems to understand the signs more than she'll generate them to actually communicate with us. For example, if she's getting fussy and I sign "nurse" to her, she'll calm down because she knows what's coming.
But in the past week or so, she's developed her own sign! For birds, of all things.
I don't know why she chose "bird" to be her first real sign, but any time we're outside and she sees or hears birds, she does the same thing. It's not the "true" sign for bird, but because it's the same consistent sign and she only does it for birds, it counts. So, when she sees or hears birds, she looks around for them, waves her arm over her heard and goes "ffft" with her mouth.
It's very, very cute, I promise.
And with all the talk of birdies in our house lately, I was reminded of this awesome set of pictures of Fin. So I'm throwing in another Fin story from the mom-memory archives!
A while back (okay, it was February of this year, so Fin was 2yrs, 2 months old here) Fin and GaGa were having lunch at her house. They were talking about all the things they saw out the window and several birds were hanging out on the fence.
Fin was learning to count at that time, so they counted the three birds hanging out there.
Then, as birds will, they flew away.
Fin shouted out, "Come back birdies!" and one did! The look on his face was priceless.
I was so glad I was there with a camera to capture the pure joy and surprise on his face when that bird came back.
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